Your Unbelief Made You Stuck by E.V Winner

Your unbelief made you stuck.

I left my praying closet because God had left it first.

He stopped showing up, and I assumed that He was done with me. Another loss in my life; however, this one I couldn't bear. How can I live without someone who has become my air?

It was easy to believe when God touched me a few years ago; His Spirit and fire became my close friends. His tangible presence fed me with a spoon, walking me by the hand every moment of day and night. But after time, His voice got quieter while the tests got greater, and then... Unfortunately, I lost myself again. I didn’t feel the fire; my prayers started losing power, and so did I.

Dunamis wasn’t with me anymore. Demons were dancing freely on the stage of my life.

People said to me, ‘What do you want, God is everywhere; read your Bible, He is there.’ They didn’t understand what I had experienced. That living, powerful God who spoke to me daily was quiet. He even covered my eyes with a thick veil; I could no longer see. I thought He was gone and I was left alone. It was better not to see at all than to see for a while and then become blind again!

Where are You, Lord? That question became my daily bread.

Bitterness started filling the empty places of my soul.

After abandoning my praying closet, I pretended that I was alive. The truth is, I was empty, dead, and desperate for the living water He had given me unexpectedly and in great abundance.

But where is He now when I am so thirsty???

My pastor said to go back to the praying closet. That was the last thing I wanted to do, but I did it anyway.

Going back in there was like going to an empty well. I tried to draw water, yet every time the bucket came back with not even a single drop. Exhaustion was an understatement. So I asked God:

“Why am I stuck, Lord?” I was desperate for answers.

Unexpectedly, His gentle voice hit my ears, saying, “You are stuck because of your unbelief.”

That short statement surprised me at first but then brought me to tears. It was like the Lord was scanning through my files, showing me different moments of my life, full of disbelief and complaints. There were many!

“So we see that they were not able to enter because of their unbelief.” - Hebrews 3:19

My unbelief had grown like a weed in an unattended garden. I didn’t notice when it overtook most of the flowers and edible plants. It was stressful and sad. My heart was bleeding, and yet my hands were too fleshly to pull out the weeds. A few years of testing, crying, and struggling were enough to abandon the praying closet because God wasn’t there for me...

A couple of days after I asked God about being stuck, I felt the urge to search for Smith Wigglesworth on the internet. The book titled “Overcoming the Spirit of Unbelief and Doubt” cried out to me. I got it straight away on Kindle and started reading. To my surprise, Wigglesworth states:

“There is nothing impossible with God. All impossibility is with us when we measure God by the limitations of our UNBELIEF.”

He talks about the unbelieving people so much that I couldn’t deny that it was a confirmation from God. With unbelief, I lost passion for Heaven, although secretly still searching for the supernatural. I nearly forgot that God is faithful and He never does something without a reason. It was me who was unable to see what He was up to, as I became a lost child who couldn’t find the parent.

Going back to His sacred place was the best thing I have done in a long time. With a great struggle and even greater resistance, I chose to stay there and believe that He would show up. And He did! Therefore, I want to encourage you not to give up on God, as He is just waiting for you to come back to the quiet place of your heart. Persevere!

“(...) we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; andcharacter hope.” - Romans 5:3-5

E.V Winner